Desires

I don't want to hide my desires anymore or feel guilty.
If is wrong, let God purifies my heart desires but at least I am true to myself and to Him.

Living out of the box and out of ordinary

I realize I am not meant to live like others.
Not in security as what other claimed it to be.
Not in comfort. Not in the way things are supposed to be or how we are supposed to acts.
No I am created to be different.
I am created to be unique.
To be who I am, not like this person or that person or like everyone else or to do things like what everyone does or live like everyone else.

What others claims to be security might be a tortured for me.
What others claims to be happiness might be a disaster or a trap for me.
What others claims as satisfaction may be complete opposite for me, it might be restlessness for me.

What others needs or wants might not be the things that my heart longs for.
I want to live the life that God has carved for me,
Is time to stop following what others said is true.
Time to stop following the crowds.

My desires and needs may be absurd and foolish for the whole world but it may be the very thing that satisfied me, free me because I am different. My ways are different.
I am not meant to live an ordinary life, it sures look tempting and safe to live and blend in but that is not me.
I want what God has in stored for me, where everyone said is a trash might be my treasure, what everyone said is a lost may be my gain.
The best road is always the word of God and not the world.

God doesn't write the same story twice, He is much more creative than that.
I choose the way, the story He has for me.
I choose to live the life He has called me to live.
To receive what He gives and believe that it is the very best for me.
He knows my heart desires. He knows me best, not I and certainly not you.


I belong to my lover,
and his desire is for me - Song of Songs 7:10

The longest night

This will be my longest night and one the hardest night in my life but I have to learn to run to God first and not man and to find comforts in Him. He alone satisfy and is my Rock and my Redeemer.

Psalm 121 - I lift up my eyes to the hill, where my helps comes from\, the maker of heaven and earth.

God is amazing!! I am glad to have Him in my life.

Till I see You

I love this song!!! This is my prayer

The greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You

You are a voice that called the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you

You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless Your name

Lyrics

To you I give my life, not just the parts I want to
To you I sacrifice these dreams that I hold on to

Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is stronger than mine
This is no sacrifice
Here's my life

To you I give the gifts
Your love has given me
How can I hoard the treasures that you've designed for free?

Because
Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is staronger than mine
This is no sacrifice
Here's my life

To you I give my future
As long as it may last
To you I give my present
To you I give my past

Because
Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is stronger than mine
Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is stronger than mine
This is no sacrifice
Here's my life

No Sacrifice

I trust in You
You are worthy
Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is stronger than mine
This is no sacrifice
Here's my life...



I love You, Jesus.
My life is Yours.
To You I sacrifice this dreams I hold on to.
You are worthy of my all.

I found this in July DTS '09 classroom notice board.

Your presence Your nearness is all I'm longing
and waiting for here in the secret quiet place.
My soul waits for You alone,
like the watchmen wait for dawn.
Here I finally found a place
where we'll meet, Lord face to face

I've finally found where I belong: in Your presence....
It's here with You.
I am my Beloved's and He is mine,
so come into Your garden and take delight in me.

Here in Your presence God,
is where I find my rest.

I am His

This ring has very significant meaning for me. It was engraved in Kathmandu with Nepali words. I almost lost this ring once. I searched for it everywhere and I couldn't find it. I prayed, "God, please help me to find this ring, it means a lot to me" instantly I felt a strong prompting, "go look for it under the washing machine". So i went, lo and behold, my ring was right under the washing machine. Who would ever thought so.... this is not the first time God help me to searched for my lost things but this ring is very special to me and I'm glad He helps me to find it back. I lost Him once, I don't want to lose Him again.

It was not always so with the bride.
Once she was contented in His absense; other society and other occupations took up her interest. But now it can never be so again.
The world can never be to her what it once was.
The betrothed bride has learned to love her Lord,
and no other society than His can satisfy her.

-One with Christ, Hudson Taylor

God is great!!

Evangelism Night
During our evangelism night tonight, we came across a lady from China. We approached her and asked if we could pray for her and we shared about who we are and we believe in Jesus, she replied very proudly she doesn't believe in anything and that she read the "text book" from Genesis to Revelation but somehow she allowed us to pray for her. After I finished praying for her, I saw her tears kept rolling down and she said she never felt like this before and she said she is afraid of this power, we explain to her that this power is the love of God to her and He desires relationship with her and her tears kept rolling down and at the end she prayed a prayer to ask God to reveal Himself to her and that she wants to know Him more and she invited Jesus into her heart. All this happened in less than 15minutes time!! God can change a person heart just like this! God is more powerful than the harden unbelief wall of China. I'm so excited to able to experience and witness the soft ground of China for Jesus!!

As you read this please prayed for this girl, that Jesus will reveal Himself to her and bring christians who loves God across her path and she will give her life to Jesus and follow after Him.

He Provides!
God is not just moving in nations and others but He also take care of me!! Every small little details as well, during our staff meeting on Wednesday, Shirley Brownhill (YWAM Perth Director) asked who need a toothpaste, few people put up their hands and then she asked who has extra toothpaste to give away and few put up their hands and she goes on with different toiletries items and guess what she asked who need hair conditioner and I put up my hand and I got one now!! The coolest thing is; my conditioner ran out last week and I checked with God if I should go and buy and I felt no, that He will give it to me and He did.. God is so amazing that He cares and provides for every little things that we need. I even received two free contact lense solutions bottle when I needed one!! He is always faithful and good!
I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread. He is ever merciful, and lendeth; and his seed is blessed. Psalm 37:25- 26

Oh my gosh, as i am typing this someone just knocked on my door and gave me a bag full of food, green tea & Earl Grey (i've been wanting to buy green tea for months & i love earl grey tea), chocolates, many toothpaste, pen, etc and tooth brush!! I been praying for tooth brush too!!! And with 100 dollar cheques!! Whoa!! I am now down to 3,900AUD to go... =)

Until the day: CompassionArt: creating freedom from poverty

Testimonies

Shout His Name through All the earth.

Finances

I am debt free by His grace, my staff fees debts of 720AUD are all miracoulously provided by Him from a total stranger I met last year on the plane back from Kathmandu to Bangkok. During that flight this man said he felt like God asked him to give me a verse and audio sermon to listen to. I was stocked! Because the message that he gave me was exactly what God spoke to me about, not only that before he left the plane, he said God asked him to bless me 85USD and I haven't hear back from him eversince then but God has been using him to bless me twice at the time I needed the money. I don't know who this person is? God ways of provision is beyond our understanding.


God has not only provided for me through this man but also through few different people and my co-partners from Malaysia too. My coming Foundation Community Development School lecture fees has been covered! The school has not even started yet. I remembered in the past, money always came in last minute and my last trip to Nepal was a total hard attack and test of my faith, stepping out into Nepal without visa money and seeing how God's faithfulness always comes through and never fail. Praise God! The best part to praise Him is that He has provided for me not only for my needs or enough to pass by but He bless me to be a channel of blessings to others.



Evangelism Night

As a commitment to YWAM Perth, we have evangelism night every Thursday to a place that we will be assign to for the whole quarter. I was placed in a shopping mall for this quarter, to be honest I wasn't really keen because I find it scarry and with unbelief in my heart that God will move through me. One of the Thursday night, I repent and press into God to show me who to talk to. God showed my evangelism partner and I both a picture. I got a picture of an aussie young guy with baggy dark blue shirt with rugged look in a dark lane. I got a word for him that says, “Come, come under the shadow of my wings. I will protect you. I will watch over you. I will send my angels to guard over you.” and sense that he is not a christian. On the other side my partner got a picture of an aussie lady with dark hair sitting in a cafe, we went for search for it but decided not to and allow God to lead us and later on my partner met a lady she came across with few weeks ago in evangelism night invited us to go for a coffee. I wanted to but felt the urge from God to look for the man and pass him the message i've got. So we both parted.


I went with another girl searching for this man and when time was up for us to go home. I was discouraged and as we walked out from the mall, we saw groups of young people and police man surrounded a guy and guess what it was exactly the same guy I saw in the picture, the way he dress, his look, his size, his age, hair color, everything was the same. I walked away at first but God urge me to go back and passed the message to him but he wasn't around the second time only left some security polices, so with the strong urgency that gets stronger and stronger in my heart and encouragement from my friend, I went over to the police and asked them about this young man and of course the police became suspicious of me but the moment I shared i'm a christian, one of the police pull me away and said he too is and he also encourage me by saying, “Believe me, sometimes the strangest thing are the most powerful thing” so he took down notes on what God spoke to me about this young guy and to pass those message to him. He told us, “Believe me this guy needs this message no better time than now, he is caught for assaults, not only that but he has assaulted the largest gangster in Perth City.


This experience taught me two things:

a) As we are being available and expectation to hear from Him, we will!

b) God's love is so amazing! He even has such personal and promising message to a man who doesn't know Him and commited a crime that has totally cause by his own self. Wow! That reminds me of God's love to me too. But not only that God loves that guy so much that he send His children to intercede for him and to gave him these words.

Ex34:6 is so beautiful – The Lord, the Lord, the compasionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin. How true is that!! God is so loving, so compassionate and kind!


Grace of God

It was the hardest step of obedience for me to come back to YWAM Perth because during my DTS time, it was SO INTENSE! Going through discipline, revelation of my own sinfulness (was so unbearable PAINFUL), culture shocks, homesick, loneliness, fears, etc.. I remembered especially after I got back from my Nepal/KL trip in March, walking back from the base to my house.. tears kept running down, I couldnt hold it. I was asking God, “Why? Why, Jesus you call me here? I don't feel call to reach out to western people or Australia, my heart is for Asia, Nepal, etc..?” As I honestly pour out my heart to God. I felt God asked me to fast for a change of heart. It only takes me a week for my heart to change. God spoke to me everyday during that week and my heart change! I feel at home now, I love it here and I know His grace is sufficient for me and made perfect in my weaknesses. And I know now I can live anywhere and do anything because Christ is with me and in me. I can do All things through Christ who strengthen me!


My relationship with God.

I'm blessed by my leaders here, they really stand by us to see breakthrough happens in our own personal life, they fear God, always tell us to seek God's heart and voice in everything and anything we do and obey. They encourages us to pursue and love God with all our heart, soul, mind and strength and love others, pursue purity and holiness. My relationship with Jesus here grows so deep again (I experienced deepness with God during my DTS time here) I am so glad I grow deeper with Him. He is so real in my life! So deep! Through my leaders I understand and know what it truly means to Fears the Lord. I learnt Fear of the Lord means revering, honoring God's opinion and feeling in everything and let Him be Lord over our ALL. God reveal to me my whole life I was restless because He is the One my heart longs for, cried out for, seeking after. He is the One I longs to worship, there is this deep whole in my heart only He can fill! He is so Amazing!! I am walking in His promises. His words is true because His words is who He is. I'm blessed by His grace that He helps me to obey and as I step out and obey, He gaves me understanding, His perspectives that His heart desire is for my very best. I can rest in Him and trust Him for who He is and trust in His words because Out of the abundance of (God's )heart, He speaks!



Nepal

God's hand in this ministry. he answered our prayers. He goes before us to speak to YWAM Nepal leaders and YWAM Indonesia leaders, put same vision and burdens in their heart. Clear communication. He even brought non believer Nepalis to come to our base and one of them volunteer to teach us Nepali language. The best part is He answers our prayers by raising up more ARMIES (WORKERS) who has the same heartbeat and passion to see this vision fulfilled. Praise God! If you like to know more about this ministry or vision or how you can be apart, please write to me for more informations.


There's many more I wish I can shared it all with you but it will be pages long. All I can sum up here of my few my past few months was AMAZING!!! I'm satisfy in Him. I'm set FREE by Him. I'm walking in His Promises and Blessing. I'm living under His Grace. I guess is a real smart choice to allow the King of the universe who created me, loves me and gave Himself for me to be Lord over my life!

A very brief description of me in YWAM Perth

YWAM Perth Monday morning base worship


A quick highlights of what i have been up to the past three months since my Nepal trip. I am with Youth With A Mission Perth serving in the ministry call INC (Indonesia, Nepal, China) where we mobilize Indonesian and Chinese missionaries to GO and bring transformation and God's Kingdom into Nepal.

I am also helping out with Pre-school in the base, babysitting and also helping out with Art Refuge every saturday, where we go and do some art works with the homeless people. For the past three months, i did a seminar call Strategic Coordinator where we learn church planting, apostolic, advocacy, media, strategies in reaching out to our people groups. God really spoke to me here the importance of strategies as key that unlock nations, communities, family.



As part of Youth With A Mission staff, our commitment to the base is not a working commitment but is a lifestyle, a family and also a community living commitment and also because we have more than 300 to 400 people living in the base so we are requires to do cleaning chores everyday at 8am, intercession 3/4 times a week, dishwashing, lunch or dinner prep, etc..

YWAM Perth staffs meeting

My Upcoming News!


God has call me to equip myself more for INC Vision, so I am now doing a Foundation Community School this coming July 6th 2009 where we have 3months lecture phase learning worldview and how to bring transformation, God's Kingdom and reconciliation into all the spheres of societies. (Family, Religion, Healthcare, Media Art, Economy, Government, Education). And another 3months outreach into the fields, where we will go to Papua New Guinea as the Prime minister of Papua New Guinea has invited YWAM Perth to go into PNG to transform the nation after reading Loren's Cunningham's book, "The book that transform Nations". So we will be involves with doing lots of community developments.


If you are interested in seeing and raising a mighty armies of missonaries from Indonesia and China to GO out and bringing God's Kingdom into Nepal or if you are interested in my outreach Community Development project in Papua New Guinea. You can write to my email. My number in Malaysia is still activated to receive ONLY sms.

Thank you for all your supports and partnering with me in seeing God's Kingdom and will fulfilled.

GOD of This City

For my previous trip to Thailand. God has impressed in my heart since last year to make a train trip down to Thailand apart from a retreat with Him, was to intercede for the prostitutes and this train trip incident actually I believe God allowed it to happened for me to intercede for them, yes I interceded for them and eventhough I felt real compassion and sorry for the prostitute but I was so angry at that old white man. I asked for forgiveness from God for that. As I watched Bluetree video, I really feel God's heart for Thailand, His people, the prostitutes and those men.

I really love this song. After I heard it at the Passion, Kuala Lumpur few days ago this song has been kept playing in my mind. Is a Very Powerful Song!! I'll definitely sing this song to every country that I go and Proclaim God over that nation and city!

Please click on both of the clip to listen to it and you can read the article below written by one of the Bluetree member. PLEASE READ! IS REALLY POWERFUL! It gives me chill as I was reading it.

Origins of "God of this City" by Bluetree.

Nov 2006, Bluetree are heading out to Pattaya Thailand to participate in an event arranged by Belfast missionaries living in Pattaya, Thailand called Pattaya Praise. We've no expectation of the event; we were just looking for an opportunity to serve somehow.

We didn't know much about it before we left, but Pattaya is a dark place. It's a small seaside town notorious for it's sex trade. Throughout our time there we heard countless stories of girls who are bought from their parents for a price, sold to the sex industry at ages as young as 5 years old. Arriving in Pattaya the spiritual climate seems to change, it's hard to define, but there is a very tangible change. On the bus journey in we'd been our usual cheery selves, but entering Pattaya at 10am and turning on to a street lined by girls ready for business, the bus became very quiet. We're in total shock. It's a sunny day but it's incredible how dark it feels.

'Walking street' we learn is the epicentre of the sex trade in Pattaya, it's about a mile long and at night springs to life with neon signs. Thai people are generally conservative in their dress sense -- it's generally considered provocative to bare your shoulders. But on their street the girls are wearing very little, and offering anything you can imagine for a price. It's easy to look around with human eyes, see the depravity and get angry. You see older men walking hand-in-hand with young girls -- as a daddy, that's hard to take in. It's easy to get angry, it's easy to judge -- but that's not our job, so we grit our teeth.

We were in Pattaya to be part of a praise event not far from this street, the soul purpose of which was to worship and show God's light in a dark place. We wanted to play more than the scheduled slots while we were there, so we found out that one of the bar owners would let us play a worship set in her bar on the proviso that we brought as many from the missions team who would buy coke-a-cola all night. We walk in to the bar which is about the middle of walking street, girls are lined up on the stairs waiting for business. We get set up, we're really nervous and quite uncomfortable but we kick in to a familiar beat of worship and soon it's ok. God starts to speak and we started to move in to this spontaneous song. The truth is when you worship in a place, you start to see God's heart for that place. What would God say to a place like this?

Amidst the depravity God say's, I'm the God of this City, I'm the King of these people and Greater Thing are Yet to Come, Greater Things are Still to be Done HERE. The song wasn't written before that night, but we came out of the bar having worshipped with the song that is now the title track of our album -- God of this City (Greater things). The song isn't just for Pattaya -- it's for your city, and it's true. By faith we must expect that greater things are still to be done.

Video of Bluetree playing in a pub in Pattaya, Thailand - Thats how this song, "GOD OF THIS CITY" came.


This Song, GOD OF THIS CITY has been widely used now as a Worship Song by Passion from all over the world claming cities and nations for Our Mighty God!


FULL VERSION OF THE SONG from Chris Tomlin - PASSION TEAM

Amazing Grace

Chris Tomlin




Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns

Unending love, Amazing grace
The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be

As long as life endures
My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me

And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace
My chains are gone
I've been set free

My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace
The earth shall soon dissolve like snow

The sun forget to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine

You are forever mine

GOD is my PASSION

Yesterday was amazing! First I attended SIB service with Pastor Paul Ang preaching. He spoke about salvation is free but after that everything cost. That is picking up the cross but His yoke is light to carried. God really spoke to me through his message about surrendering to God. I knew what God wanted me to surrender so I went out to the altar again and surrendered my "Isaiac" to Him. Eventhough it was a very special moment with God but my heart are still in pain, I didn't have much time to process but to changed gear to PASSION!

We waited for almost 4 hours for the worship session to start but I didn't feel that long at all maybe because I was accompanied by my wonderful and crazy friends, Celine and Veron that makes me laugh most of the time trying to come out with different kinds of strategies on how to get a front seats. We waited for more than an hour and when the door was open we actually literally ran in. And you can imagine me kept running and laughing the same time. It was crazy and hilarious at the same time. I absolutely love it!

We got the center seats on the second row. I was so excited! Honestly admit eversince I was in YWAM Perth base worshipping God with Chris Tomlin songs, he has become one of my favourite singer. But truly he wasn't the main reason I was excited about tonight. I was excited about the long hours of worshipping God with the songs I always sang to Him, songs that touch my heart and makes me cry. Now I can worship GOD, the ONE MY HEART LOVES with the songs I loved to sing to Him with those who composes it and together with my dearly love friends, Celine and Veron.

I was sitting right in front, but soon the altar was filled with people including my friends and I. I was then standing right in front of Chris Tomlin and the loud speaker. As we are worshipping God right in front at the altar I couldn't help but imagine how beautiful and awesome it is to worship the King of Kings, the One I've been waited for all my life and together with multitudes of people from different tongues, nations and tribes. It was incredible. I feel it was like a little treat from God to me. To encourage me to go on following Him, knowing there is great rewards awaiting for me. I want to worship Jesus Christ right down at His feet. I want to be RIGHT IN FRONT of JESUS worshipping Him, The King of Glory!

Jesus is my Passion!

Surrender

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GO Fest Singapore

This past more than one month has been getting so much more intense for me especially after GoForth Singapore. Eventhough the conference is really general because it was organised for all the churches and mission organizations in Singapore. But God still works powerfully in me and my friends in His own way and also through Loren Cunningham message and prayer. I remembered in the conference many times I sneaked out to spent time alone with God, twice I went to public bookstore to read about Mother Teresa's book, "Come be my Light". As I was reading that book or even doing my quiet time alone in Mac'D, I just couldn't hold my tears. I felt my heart was so heavy as if it was going to fall off. He is drawing me into a deeper place with Him. He is calling me to spend more time with Him because many times I tend to run to people and my other "comforts" first but this time I feel the consuming jealousy and thirst of God for more of me to Himself. I feel He wants all of me to Himself. That's means I need to surrender to Him in another deeper level where I've not known before that I had hold it so tight.

I remembered there are times where this process of warfare between my own flesh; "idol" and my spirit was so intense, I thought I can't go on another step. I asked God to deliver me from this idol in my heart. I want to be completely set free to worship and love God with all my heart. He deserves the highest place in my heart, my mind, my soul and everything of me. But God's grace is always sufficient, times when I thought I couldn't go on anymore, His strength and love will comes in and revives me again. There are times I want my own desires so badly that I asked God why can't He grant that to me then God gently reminds me of my prayers crying out to God to remove anything that would hinders my whole heart to Him. He did! Praise God!

Yesterday, God told me, "You can't love me by your own strength. No one can. Only through my grace and my perfect love that flows through you. "He continued on, " Liyien, you said you are passionate for me, your deepest place crying out for my deepest touch but I tell you is the other way round. My passion is so much more for you, is My deepest heart crying out for your deepest place and touch. My heart leaps for joy awaiting for you every morning, every moment. My passion is not the Cross but My passion is you, is My people, everyone. It is this passion that leads me to the Cross and in giving up My life. If anyone knows the fullness of my passion towards each one of them, they will easily and willingly lay down their own life for me."

I cried as He spoke that to me knowing how much broken heart and suffering He carry and longs for us. I had a dream last night, I was in a room with few other people and I was in great pain like I never felt in my life before. No one but God alone was with me. He did not delivered me of this pain but He sat next to me whole time, holding my hands tightly and gently whispering words of encouragement to me. I thank God for this beautiful picture assuring that He is with me and He will be my strength.

What Mother Teresa and Brother Yun, "Heavenly man" wrote really inspired me of pure love for Jesus through suffering. I'm amazed at how they both rejoice over suffering because in suffering they are one with Jesus. I now see suffering in different light. Many times I still fail but I know He will never give up on me and that He will keep purifying my love and heart for Him. A Father Child relationship, is all about receiving from the Father but a Bridal relationship is where we can also share His joy, pain, suffering and heart beat.

Consume me Lord, draw me deeper into You. Purify my heart.
Show me Your suffering on the road of calvary and on the cross, only then will I understand the depth of Your love for me and Your people.

My Thailand Trip

It was a great and wonderful experience as most of your received email of me requesting prayers for this trip. I felt strong prompting that God wants me to go. He gave me words and also specific confirmation that I asked from Him. It was indeed true what God promised He will do for me in this trip. He really gave me breakthrough, He revealed the secret things of my heart to me, healing and also miracles too..

I took a plane to Chiang Mai. I stayed in this place called Juniper Tree, mainly a retreat place only for missionary. I stayed for 4days and 3nights. It was really a great place but i stayed there most of the time worrying about my finances and on my last day as I was praying God revealed things in my heart that has hinder His love and blessings to flow in my life. After I got myself right with God again, I feel a sense of breakthrough, peace, joy and faith rise in me. I also got to cycle around in Chiang Mai.

So I went on from Chiang Mai to Bangkok by train because I feel strong prompting to travel on the train ride. I travel from Chiang Mai to Bangkok for 13 hours. I had a great ride. I got to know 2 pakistani girls and manage to share about my testimony to one of them.

When I arrived in Bangkok train station I had 8 hours laid over, so I decided to visit Bangkok City. I went to their shopping malls spot.. the worse part was I forgot the name of the shopping the moment I got into their publlic bus but thank God someone could speak Mandarin, so he helps me to translate. I had amazing time in Bangkok, spending time with Jesus and He revealed deeper things to me about myself.

On my way back from Bangkok to Malaysia, I had quite a disturbing time.. it was great at first spending time with Jesus and I was pleading God to give me a lower bed because the previous one I couldn't sleep the whole night because of worried I'll fall of the bed if I over turn. So this time I kept praying but I sense God telling me everything works for good for those who loves Him and He kept telling me to trust Him. So I've got peace of sleeping on upper bed knowing I will NOT fall of the bed.

True enough I thank God I was on the upper bed, towards night time I felt something not good is going to happen so I prayed for protection then went on sleeping and I woke up around 12+ and saw a prostitute came inside the train and lie down on this white man lower bed. This man waas shocked at first himself too but later on they started having sex and makes noisy sounds.. I was on my top bed praying and I told God, "I'm a children of light I don't want to accept or tolerate this kind of activities happening around me". True enough God gave me many verses and telling me this warfare belongs to Him. I spend 2 hours kneeling down on my top bed binding and casting out spirit of lust, interceding for them.. and they still continues on.. In the end in my desperation, I cried out to God and asked Him why is not happening Your name.. and then I felt God telling me, "Liyien, remember I told you this is my battle, is not yours. All you need to do is just focus on me and worship me." So I started worshipping God and on the 2nd songs I sense breakthrough so I took off my earphone and I heard true enough they stopped. Praise God!! It was the most intense ride of my life but I experience Victories!!

Honestly speaking I'll never go for another trip alone to Thailand again if God did not ask me to go. On the train ride few different men came up to me and the moment I started praying they went of. I thank God this time He called me to go and I obey because He gave me victories, healing and breakthrough of my relationship with Him. I feel so much deeper with Jesus now and I trust Him so much more after this trip. Eventhough this trip from Chiang Mai back home took me more than 56hours and 38hours inside the train but through this trip I learned to trust His WORDS! I used to doubt His words but now I choose to stand upon HIs Words and His Promises because He has proven trustworthy, faithful and GOOD!

I will choose now to Obey Him because He desires and KNOWS what's BEST for me!!

I arrived!!

2007 has gone and now comes 2008... I arrived in Penang on 1st of January to staff a Discipleship Training School (DTS). What a great start! I took a bus from KL until Butterworth and from there I took a ferry ride across Penang carrying over 30kg luggages and tears almost flow down not because of anything other than the bag is too heavy!!! But I thank God for a calm and serene ride from the ferry..


Immediately the next day after my arrival, early morning we had meetings, classroom decorations, spring cleaning (3months once), praying for one another and over each students and more Meetings!!! I heard YWAM is also known as Youth With A Meeting.. i guess is true.




But I am certainly excited to meet those students that are coming in next week at the same time I miss my niece badly...










I want to thank each one of you of your supports, prayers and encouragements. Not one of them is in waste but has been such great encouragements to me to continue following Jesus on the road that has set before me. Only me and God knows how much I treasure each of your supports..


So i have to go for another meetings now.... blessed you all with the Love and best of God

This Road And This Cross

Can I not pick up this old rugged cross?
Is there any other alternative way for me to take?
Is there any other short cut?
Must I really take this road and carry this cross?

Can I bear this pain? Can I even bear its weight?
Can I even bear its cost; the lost and the suffering it involves?

Lord, Can I not take this long and deserted road?
Is too far. Too tough and too lonely. It is even painful.
What if I fail? What if I fall?

What if I'm lost on this journey?
Who will pick me up?
Who will heal my pains and wounds?
Who can I run to? Who will walk with me in this journey?

Am I able to walk through this bumpy and dusty road?
Will I be strong enough to carry this old rugged cross?
Is this the only way for me to embrace You and to seek Your heart?

Daddy, Who can I cry out to in times of pain and loneliness?
Is there a place for me to hide? Can I escape from this cross?

But Daddy if I were to escape this road and this cross of mine,
Will I still be able to feel Your heart beat and hear Your cry?
And to wipe the tears from Your eyes?
Will I be able to share Your Joy and Your pain or even understand the meanings of it.
If I were to escape this road and this cross of mine,
Will I still be transform into the image of my Lord Jesus?
Will I still have the courage to stand before You?
And to look into Your eyes
And to say "Thank You Daddy for all that You have done for me"? from my Heart


You pick me up from the filthy pit of darkness with Your bleeding hands.
You rescue me from those who pursue me.
You carry me in Your arms when I couldn't even stand.
You wipe away every tear in my eyes.
You heal every pain in my heart. You set me free to Live.
And take away every shame in me and clothes me in Your Robe of Righteousness.

I know You, Daddy
If I were ever to count the cost of the Cross, it will always be a Plus.
Because You have paid it all for me.
You carry my cross of death and You've given me Your Cross of life.
All I have to do NOW is only to pick up this Cross of mine.

I realize now, this Cross is not my curse but my blessings
Is not my burdens but my Strength.
Yes, Daddy I will pick up this Cross. I will walk this road.
Because I know...
You will carry this Cross with me till my End.

Highlights of my Discipleship Training with YWAM Perth

I would really like to thank you for all of your supports whether in words, financial or prayers; it is received with a great gratitude. Here are some highlights of what I had been involved in of my DTS and my last six months. My experience in YWAM Perth Oct 06 till Apr 07 has been amazing. Seeing how God works in my life and others. I learn that being a Disciple of Jesus really means; Dying to Self.

So this DTS experience of mine is a real painful time for me where God really ask me to lay down my own rights, expectations, desires and etc but it was also through this humiliating feet of the cross where I found myself and God.

Lecture Phase.

Entering into the tabernacle of God

*A time of refining in the fire
*A time where God revealed and brought out all my hidden sins; fear, shame, disobedient, pride, etc.
*A time where I experienced the Love of God as my Personal Father and The Cross

Outreach Phase
Margaret River (SOS Camp)

One of my friends evangelizes to a 13years old girl who always hangs out at the park. She accepted Christ and the following day she was baptized, and the day after her baptism she followed us around the town to do evangelism.

We are leading a group of youth age 13-14 to Margaret River. I have the privilege of watching them grows mature and in love with Jesus in two weeks time. They preach on the streets, prophecies over the town and to businesses, evangelism. Is so amazing to see young generation so gear up for God and mature in Christ.

We had the opportunity to evangelize in Skate Park. Many youths are exposing to drugs even as young as 12 years old. At the same time they are very open to us and also to the Gospel.

Flores Island, Indonesia
5days and 4nights in the ship - We had the opportunity to share Gospel in the public and pray for more than 100 people and many come to repentance.

Tony (not his real name) involved in witchcraft and sexual immorality. He testified as we worshipped, his “hair stand” and later he joined us in worship. He loves to worship and refuse to leave so we worship together with him from morning till night, though he worship the cigarettes never leave him. And as we are worshipping people keeps coming to us for prayers.

The next day he came to us and repents of his sin and he threw away his black magic pouch that used to seduce women.

After his repentance, he chose an extreme way that will get him killed by the villages but despite this fear he choose to fear God and to turn from his sinful ways. The last day we saw him praying alone for hours and to our surprise he threw his cigarettes away too.

This village has not been raining for 2 months in monsoon season because of witchcrafts. This village started to rain after our team intercess for rain. Our God is Powerful!

Through this outreach we are able to witness 117 salvation, 17 instant healing, 200+ prays for people, preach in churches, streets.




Impact World Tour Perth 07

My team assists Island Breeze, cover them in prayers

Sometimes we performed skit in schools

We also help to set up the stage and rams and also tearing it down. We had seen more than 3,000 salvations. Mostly those who respond are children age 5 to 12 years old

My past 6 months in Kuala Lumpur
Ministering to friends and supporters
Evangelism Explosion Clinics – learning to evangelize effectively
Working with Kings’ Kids Early Years

Serving my family – spending time with my lovely and newly born niece

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL OF YOUR PRAYERS AND SUPPORTS TO ME. I WOULD TO HEAR BACK FROM YOU TOO! GOD BLESS!