This Road And This Cross

Can I not pick up this old rugged cross?
Is there any other alternative way for me to take?
Is there any other short cut?
Must I really take this road and carry this cross?

Can I bear this pain? Can I even bear its weight?
Can I even bear its cost; the lost and the suffering it involves?

Lord, Can I not take this long and deserted road?
Is too far. Too tough and too lonely. It is even painful.
What if I fail? What if I fall?

What if I'm lost on this journey?
Who will pick me up?
Who will heal my pains and wounds?
Who can I run to? Who will walk with me in this journey?

Am I able to walk through this bumpy and dusty road?
Will I be strong enough to carry this old rugged cross?
Is this the only way for me to embrace You and to seek Your heart?

Daddy, Who can I cry out to in times of pain and loneliness?
Is there a place for me to hide? Can I escape from this cross?

But Daddy if I were to escape this road and this cross of mine,
Will I still be able to feel Your heart beat and hear Your cry?
And to wipe the tears from Your eyes?
Will I be able to share Your Joy and Your pain or even understand the meanings of it.
If I were to escape this road and this cross of mine,
Will I still be transform into the image of my Lord Jesus?
Will I still have the courage to stand before You?
And to look into Your eyes
And to say "Thank You Daddy for all that You have done for me"? from my Heart


You pick me up from the filthy pit of darkness with Your bleeding hands.
You rescue me from those who pursue me.
You carry me in Your arms when I couldn't even stand.
You wipe away every tear in my eyes.
You heal every pain in my heart. You set me free to Live.
And take away every shame in me and clothes me in Your Robe of Righteousness.

I know You, Daddy
If I were ever to count the cost of the Cross, it will always be a Plus.
Because You have paid it all for me.
You carry my cross of death and You've given me Your Cross of life.
All I have to do NOW is only to pick up this Cross of mine.

I realize now, this Cross is not my curse but my blessings
Is not my burdens but my Strength.
Yes, Daddy I will pick up this Cross. I will walk this road.
Because I know...
You will carry this Cross with me till my End.

Highlights of my Discipleship Training with YWAM Perth

I would really like to thank you for all of your supports whether in words, financial or prayers; it is received with a great gratitude. Here are some highlights of what I had been involved in of my DTS and my last six months. My experience in YWAM Perth Oct 06 till Apr 07 has been amazing. Seeing how God works in my life and others. I learn that being a Disciple of Jesus really means; Dying to Self.

So this DTS experience of mine is a real painful time for me where God really ask me to lay down my own rights, expectations, desires and etc but it was also through this humiliating feet of the cross where I found myself and God.

Lecture Phase.

Entering into the tabernacle of God

*A time of refining in the fire
*A time where God revealed and brought out all my hidden sins; fear, shame, disobedient, pride, etc.
*A time where I experienced the Love of God as my Personal Father and The Cross

Outreach Phase
Margaret River (SOS Camp)

One of my friends evangelizes to a 13years old girl who always hangs out at the park. She accepted Christ and the following day she was baptized, and the day after her baptism she followed us around the town to do evangelism.

We are leading a group of youth age 13-14 to Margaret River. I have the privilege of watching them grows mature and in love with Jesus in two weeks time. They preach on the streets, prophecies over the town and to businesses, evangelism. Is so amazing to see young generation so gear up for God and mature in Christ.

We had the opportunity to evangelize in Skate Park. Many youths are exposing to drugs even as young as 12 years old. At the same time they are very open to us and also to the Gospel.

Flores Island, Indonesia
5days and 4nights in the ship - We had the opportunity to share Gospel in the public and pray for more than 100 people and many come to repentance.

Tony (not his real name) involved in witchcraft and sexual immorality. He testified as we worshipped, his “hair stand” and later he joined us in worship. He loves to worship and refuse to leave so we worship together with him from morning till night, though he worship the cigarettes never leave him. And as we are worshipping people keeps coming to us for prayers.

The next day he came to us and repents of his sin and he threw away his black magic pouch that used to seduce women.

After his repentance, he chose an extreme way that will get him killed by the villages but despite this fear he choose to fear God and to turn from his sinful ways. The last day we saw him praying alone for hours and to our surprise he threw his cigarettes away too.

This village has not been raining for 2 months in monsoon season because of witchcrafts. This village started to rain after our team intercess for rain. Our God is Powerful!

Through this outreach we are able to witness 117 salvation, 17 instant healing, 200+ prays for people, preach in churches, streets.




Impact World Tour Perth 07

My team assists Island Breeze, cover them in prayers

Sometimes we performed skit in schools

We also help to set up the stage and rams and also tearing it down. We had seen more than 3,000 salvations. Mostly those who respond are children age 5 to 12 years old

My past 6 months in Kuala Lumpur
Ministering to friends and supporters
Evangelism Explosion Clinics – learning to evangelize effectively
Working with Kings’ Kids Early Years

Serving my family – spending time with my lovely and newly born niece

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL OF YOUR PRAYERS AND SUPPORTS TO ME. I WOULD TO HEAR BACK FROM YOU TOO! GOD BLESS!